It still seems so surreal to me, like I’m living someone else’s life, or watching mine through aquarium glass. I can’t quite get my brain around it, but it’s the truth:
Jared and I are expecting a little one! Yep: I’m pregnant. With a human child.
Baby Schultz will arrive April 28, 2013, they say.
And we’re just so excited but we’ve never done this before and I have no idea how to do it except to just trust all the love I have bustin inside me for this little baby but I’m scared and thrilled and curious and filled with any and every emotion you can imagine.
I daydream about soft fuzzy clothes but don’t have a clue about strollers. (There are like 76948 different kinds. Did you know?!) I keep waiting for the wave to crash over my head, the one where I want to read mommy blogs and parenting books and research this thing to death, but I don’t feel it. I feel peaceful. And sometimes panicky, but. Even though this is the biggest life change I’ll ever experience, it feels mostly natural. I keep reminding myself that people do this mom thing every day, so I guess I can do it, too.
I approach most things in life from a place of passion–and I rely on my burning love for music or people or photography to help me work out the nuts and bolts that I’m so very not good at. Hi, I’m Brooke, crazy creative with a whole lotta soul and big picture vision but zero genius in the way of logistics. But I’ve got that burning love for this baby–fierce, huge kind that feels like it could swallow me whole. And that love makes me think I’ll do okay with non-dreamy things like picking out a stroller.
I can’t wait to meet this little human. We find out if it is a boy human or a girl human in 5 days, so stay tuned.
Thanks for celebrating this big life thing with me, friends.