okay i KNOW i stole that title but it was rolling around in my brain far too much to choose something else.
this is us, right now. (except there’s a lot more of jared and rio but both of those dudes do not like to be photographed so i deal.)
we are wiggling through mundane days filled with laughter and light and loss and lots, lots of tears. less of mine these days which feels even more amazing than i ever thought it would. i am learning. i am growing into this role and savoring more of their littleness, their wonder and their very conditional growing–the growing that has so much to do with my choices it’s choking sometimes, but other times the most satisfying thing i’ve ever been part of. to be needed so much. that’s what everyone wants, right? but then we want to run away and never be found…
here’s a poem i wrote about it.
motherhood
It is soaring sea and ripping wind
Every time I love you it starts again
Receding, cut through bleeding
Heartache wrench in skin
You are light in tiny forms
Blurring as it dances soft and wild in your hair
Flowers pick up the scents of our filled up air
Time
That flows then rocks then stops
Aches then cracks
Rivulets rolling through again
It is racing hearts and beating veins
Prickling against choice again
It is dropping, collapsing under the weight
Then flying together in clouds (I’ll never be able to describe the color)
Magnificence, depth, roaring so loud my ears can’t breathe and all I can do is smile
Full fledged upteenth time
Everything wrapped together
in a tiny
glorious
circular day.
If you’re interested in having me capture your “us”, let’s chat about it. Full pricing and scheduling details will be yours lickety split, love.
