I’m out of practice pulling words together
I’ve been trying to simply pull my days together
Thread together a morning routine
Basic safety and meals for the five of us
It is everything, and feels like nothing.
We’ve been on a rollercoaster, yeah?
With an experience so shared and so global it simultaneously feels more connecting and more isolating than anything I’ve ever experienced. Because I can share my rollercoaster, and it will ring true for some and hollow for others. Who am I to say what this experience is, definitively, for all of us? It’s never stopped me with motherhood, which is obviously so variable and individual, yet I do think universal. Maybe it just feels more pretentious in this time to say, THIS–this is what it is. Because the truth? All I can say is HERE. here it is. this is what it is for me. Lonely and freeing. Stripping everything to its basic, and missing the frivolous extras. Waves of fear crashing on shores of peace and deep knowing.
So the thing I come back to is family. Not because it’s the only constant; that’s for the lucky among us. But because it is a container that holds room wide enough for the rollercoaster to twist, turn, grind to a halt and dip back down again.
And if you feel like you haven’t created much of anything lately? Let me prove you wrong. 😉
When you comfort a loved one, in the way only you can, it might not seem special because it is natural, even automatic. But it is creative.
What more honorable and exquisite to create than love?
And creating love takes the most ingenuity of all, because it requires the whole of you. It requires showing up when you don’t feel like it, when you’re completely spent.
Every time you show up for love you create a world with more love in it.
(this series for The Hybrid Collective when we stuffed 20 photographers into this loving family’s kitchen in San Diego. what a treat!)
Do you live in southern california or are you making plans to visit? Wanna to have your family photographed by me? Contact me here and I’ll send over all the pricing, availability + details, m’love.
