gulp. yes…there was a literal gulp as i opened this post.
because i started out as a wedding photographer and a wedding photographer only, and here i am saying a sad goodbye to weddings so i can pour my whole heart into the family photography and education pieces of my business.
i fought with myself for a while; why even have a big grand goodbye for weddings? why not just keep them around just in case, save them for a few years from now in case i change my mind or have more time to devote to my business? plus why the blunt divorce when i still love weddings, so, so much? plus what about all the beautiful, amazing, indescribable couples and people and biggest days I’ve been honored to be part of? does my move away from weddings make their images a little less credible? (i mean that’s kinda ridiculous, but your brain brings up some clever crazy weird thoughts when it senses danger, even if that danger is just internet strangers’ opinions of you.)
so the answer to all this isn’t very explainable. definitely not in a few sentences.
but sometimes you have a gut feeling.
and sometimes you know it’s time to move on, move out and make space in your life. even if i could argue that i could still fit weddings into everything else i want to do, something is telling me to lovingly let them go instead of clenching them tight, to make room for all the other beauty in my world professionally and at home.
i want to explain and justify more, mostly for the imaginary haterrs in my mind, and that’s my cue to stop.
this can’t end without the world’s most wimpy thank you to all the wondrous hearts who invited me in to their biggest beginning. i love you all and that is for real. (ps bring me your babies to photograph amen.)
and like a too-long goodbye kiss, just as i’m telling you you’ll never get to see any more, here are some favorites from recent weddings wink.
*I will still be taking weddings on a very, very limited basis, so if you like what you see and wanna chat about your big day, contact me here.