gosh i miss utah.
it comes and goes in waves. usually looking at photos i took there is a surefire way to catch one of those waves.
i’m struggling, you guys. i know this california place will feel like home some day. but today it doesn’t. today it feels brown and dead and foreign and fast moving and unfriendly. (i parked my car kinda messily yesterday and someone felt the need to write me two notes calling me some choice words for my misdeed. not gonna get any slack here, mama.)
but it’s not going to be hard forever. i know that all i need is time. and that’s the hardest: something i have no control over. i’m beginning to think this whole life thing is really just all about giving up control, in a graceful way. and the whole test is to see if you will do it elegantly, or if you will kick and scream and make an even bigger mess.
i’m learning to go with this flow. to fight when fighting is right, and to let things wash in and out of me in their season when that is all i can do.
this session. the night was full of that clean crisp mountain air some people never even get to gulp into their lungs–but we did. with beauty and elegance and jenny + dustin’s soft love and the pines, we did.
Gown: The Bride’s Shop
Flowers: La Fete Floral
Headpiece: Lindsay Marie Bridal